How I Found Myself at a Kinky Party
I know I am not alone when I admit that I have struggled with body dysphoria since I was a teenager. Thanks to genetics, I have had to process so many comments about my thick thighs and big butt since before I started growing boobs. I look back at photos of myself in my 20s and wonder how I could ever think I was fat! Now, in my late 30s, my body shows 10 years of change from becoming a mother, dealing with hormonal changes, depression, and anxiety that caused me to gain weight no matter how hard I tried to keep it off. My body is no longer firm and tight, my boobs aren’t as perky, and I rock a cool scar from having a c-section. I noticed how much I hated shopping because I couldn’t find clothes I liked that hid what I saw as flaws. My confidence levels seemed to be lower than I ever could have imagined possible. This made enjoying doing things outside of my comfort zone almost next to …